Though i never moved, my whole moving experience has sort of gone in phases. You i've had my "yay moving may be good" phases. My "moving is gonna suck ass" phase. My "feel bad for me, i'm gonna complain cause i dont wanna move" phases. And I at the moment somewhat a mix between them all.

My close friends, Jessica, Sara, and Alyssa, (not me) have be getting along weird. I dont know why, but i dont feel as close, and i dont feel like i can trust. Its awful, i dont know, but i'm thinking maybe moving will be ok. I know things would change. I'm just so nieve for thinking they'd always be here, that i'd always be here. I still havent actually cried cried. ( A little last nite when i was talking to ashlie... but other than that.)It makes me feel like i have no soul. It hurt more than anything though. I havent personally had any of my best friends moved, but i know how things can work. You'll say you'll write, you'll call... it just doesnt happen sometimes. And i am almost starting to except that. But weird enough, as i come to accept it, it doesnt get easier. I'm not looking for sympothy, i dont need it, and plenty others can use it. But I just need to be heard.