Yesterday night i had time trials for swim. I did really bad which i was expecting to because i hadnt been to practice for like all last week. Its sucks. I feel like i'm working my ass of for nothing. No improvment, nothing. If you want a rainbow, i guess ya gotta get through the rain.

I just talked to Nick. I still sorta like him (i think) and i thought he liked me. Maybe he does, but what i'm getting from him, he doesnt seem like he does. Maybe cause i havent seen him in like a month. My friends think that i'm waiting for mr. perfect and my expectations are too high. They think i should go for him. But i dont know what to do, i dont know what i even want. I dont want to be hurt, but i guess i gotta risk it if i want to be with him.

Even my horoscope said that.. lol. (i dont believe in them, but no doubt odd quincedence...)