Jarret is going out with Courtney. I dont like Jarret, i like Nick. I think. But for some reason i feel weird. I am happy for Jarret( and Courtney) but i dunno, i cant explain. I'm so low if i'm jelous, i should be happy. Whats wrong with me.

No Nick for a couple days. Theres a dance on Fri. which i'll prob. be going to. I dont wanna like Nick. I dont wanna be attatched and have to leave.

I dont wanna hurt.

But i cant do it anymore. I feel like i need someone. Its not anything big, and i've only known nick for like a 2 months but it feels right. Maybe not the most reliable source..

Off to swim...

bye*