i got back today.

You know my weekend was alright, I got to pa on friday. I visited everyone from track at bk. it was good to see everyone, but weird. its funny, how some people will never change.

I went to ashlies with alyssa and it was fine. i got emotional at the end, we all did. i like being with my friends, but once i see them, im always thinking of how im going in a couple days.

Saturday i went to roller king with nick. (that place is so beat) and i had an ok time, but i dont know about us anymore. i still like him, but i question it. after that infatuation wears off, your left with two people trying have a relationship, and im not always sure if its working. but i couldnt dump him, so i guess ill see where its going.

sierras party on sunday and that was good too.

Monday (sigh) Lauresns 19 birthday. We went shopping with my mom at steamtown and all was good untill the last hour where i begged my mom to go home so i could go to the hanover track practice. i got there finally to the practice to where i thought i wanted to go. to where i could i guess 'relive some memories' and whatnot, and maybe feel at home. except i got there, and was lost and so out of place. i dont know why im holding on to something thats out of my control.

something im not part of anymore.