thank computer...for screwing up.

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What we missed:

Ashlie came in. Thank God.

I had an awsome time...i think i needed her to be here..even if just for a while. The beach was good too, and i think she had a good time.

It was filled with other than us, the beach, weird jokes, parodies, some sun, and an overall kickass time that reminds me of how we used to be.

I took her home to pa, and the next night she called me to go to the bazzar. I saw alyssa, and jessica and we hung out there. My new summer and in general life rule and to do is to stop caring what people think. and i did that night. And im glad :)

Ashlies visit was awsome...but bittersweet. She moved last year, and knows what im going through. And as much as i dont want to, i have to start moving on. I swear ive lost the past 5 months, i've been living off the memories of pa. Im not going back tommorrow, next week, or next year. I have to start living here.

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Yesterday

I had gotten over my bitterness of the breakup with Nick, but still refused to im him.

He imed me yesterday, and we started talking. About old times. And countless other things. And when we broke up we said we'd still talk but i didnt think we actually would. One of those things you say you will but then a week passes or a month and your stuck staring at their screen name and cant get past the fear of the awkward silence to come.

But we're friends.

And i guess its kind of the closure i need.