there is so much to say.

i came into pa untill wends. on friday i went to steph's where alot of my friends were. It was so good to see them but Jarret wasnt there. I slept over ashlie's house because she wanted me to be there for a cross country meet she had to run in for her dad. We woke up 5:58 in the morning. And once we got there...i realized who ran cross...my ex boyfriend, and a ton of other people i know. It was crazy seeing all those people at once...and being there on a cross country team i hadn't ran for in year, i felt slightly out of place. but an awsome time none the less.

Next, ashlie and i went home. Next was the football game. Ashlee Mall came to which was great too cause i hadnt seen her, well anyways. My dad drops us off and we're walking towards the the ticket stand. Ashlie and Ashlee had bought their ticket already and as i went to buy mine i saw some cheerleading walk by and say "hey jarret" now i thought he was on a camping trip. i heard "hey alyssa", so i turned around. And it was him. Standing there.

I hadnt seen him in so long i just hugged him, and probably for that minute cutoff some of his oxygen supply. God i missed him so much.

The game went on, and i saw sara,sarah,jess,alyssa,chris,mike,susan,sierra, and so many other people. People look so different. Its craazzy. I missed them all so much. Well after a very good game, and alot of convincing of my mom, i went to sarah bryski's house with pretty much everyone who was there.

We watched tv, but mainly it was tickling and tackeling. At the football game i told ashlie how i liked jarret. Even before the move jarret and my relationship had always been somewhat complicated. Now he liked me for a while, and since i met him in 5th grade, i always kind of liked him. But i would never tell anyone, cause it was either the wrong time, and then the move happened. And i didnt want to ruin the friendship. But i'd like him, then i wouldnt then so on. But anyone it was probably so noticable at sarahs, but yes i liked him. And i really wanted to kiss him. And i should have. We were playing around all night, and ashlie said that i should have told him i liked him and went for it. But number one, i dont think he liked me, other than as a friend. And then i found out jessica likes him, so i wouldnt do that if she likes him. Theres been enough confrentation over the whole ashlie and zach thing, and there would only be more

200 miles more.

But anyways, at the end of the night i kissed him on the cheek and just hugged him. And i watched him leave, and i just hope that its not another 6 months before i see him again.