*sighs*
holy crap. im uber pathetic today. and pissed.

its not like i liked him or anything, but we are friends and everything. and well HE has a girlfriend. yea.

well maybe i lied. maybe i did (cough..do) like him a little..(but i would flat out deny it to your face)
anyway..he has a girlfriend. and the truth is regaurdless of whether i like him or not..i probably wouldnt have wanted to 'go out' with him. really i wouldnt. i just wanted him to like me. which is horrible and completely unrealistic. and another thing i would never admit...im probably not ready for a boyfriend..and i just want to be chased. like i said though i dont wannt go out, im pissed hes going out with someone else. i dont know why. i dont even want to be. but I am. i should be happy for him. which i suppose i am...well..no im not. but i need to get him out of my mind...by AVOIDING HIM AT ALL COSTS.

well ashlie and i were talking and she might come in for new years and i was stoked. till i talked to my dad and he said theres not direct trips from wb to milford. they all stop in NYC. so doesnt look like thats happening. but we'll celebrate via internet lol.

im going to go try to remain positive and Avoid certain people that im trying to be happy for...if i cant stop twitching at the thought of him and his girlfriend together